re: videography

hey there,

i think the most difficult think about being a videographer is you stumble across a section of footage or a tape of something from a wonderful time that has long since past, and now, you would do anything to be there again. i recently found some footage of my daughter and son from about Fall 2005. it's really beautiful to see them playing and i'd do anything to be there again. makes me wish i could go back in time and fix what i didn't know was coming. do it right. nearly made me cry watching it. the footage is sweet, a beautiful fall day at prince charles park in kamloops. seems like i've been through hell since then. i don't know if trial and tribulations make you stronger, maybe it just makes you realize you want to get through the storms and to the calm again. i miss my kids. more than anything. if you got a family, and you want it, do what it takes to not lose it. like me.

cb

what if jesus were a clown? a pimp clown?

money and skin

crystal stones.

so, i'm doing a lot more erotic type art lately.

what's your point?

i'm bored.

To Jesus thru Mary.......

i love dark, scary art.

re: spaces.....

hello friends, lovers, and fans......

i'm in a weird space, feeling that i must be bold and create even crazier art. it happens. in a transitional place in my life, and wondering what to do. i feel sometimes i should be on the road touring, playing live and such, but that will have to wait. springtime maybe. touring canada in the winter sucks. don't do it.

as well, i need an album to record and tour behind anyway, which hasn't quite happened yet. the sky is getting darker earlier, seasons are changing, and i have to sort what to do for gigs and finding a place to live, etc, etc......

i guess i feel a bit discombobulated, disconnected from my peers, hiding away creating art, i think i'm wood shedding, practicing, paying my dues, hoping a door will open and i will be able to take the chance and go through......

a lot of people have been really kind and amazing to me, ashok mathur, doug buis, kateri aki-wenzie damm, joanne arnott, janet rogers, martin tuba, tania willard, garry gottfriedson, my family, my cousin's, and in the next few weeks i should have a book of poetry coming out with kegedonce, called "stone the crow."

we'll see what happens and keeping on storming towards the light, the darkness and everything in between i guess......

see you around,


cb

dreams of lovers and death.....

i am haunted by my past and mistakes i have made.

new styles and such....

i have recently re-discovered a love of cool band posters, above which is not, but still, it was influenced by them.

body bags for the reserves.....

sigh, i thought i'd wade in on the whole body bag gaffe......so, okay, here's my take.....canada is fucking rich with white entitlement and not nearly enough post-colonial guilt.....

nothing changes......

for the million or so other first nations in canada living in a near inescapable poverty hell just like me, fuck you canada.

got land? resources? a decent job? a career? hope?

thank an indian.

drifting and dreaming of a different world......dreamtime......

post modern envy and lust

what is the lesser of two evils?

deadly politics

ghosts and fate

oh canada

re: damn

hey y'all.....

so, i've been shooting, yelling and directing this music video for janet rogers the past five or eight days.....and i've just started editing it.....i'm gonna do three versions of the same video, each one different and crazy!

hence, my not posting anything, because, when you shoot live video, have a crew of ten or so, five vehicles and several locations, you tend to be very focused.....plus, it was a lot like an 'ed wood' movie, in that we were making it up as we went along......in some instances........

anyways,

i'm gonna get back into the daily updates tomorrow as i've got a bunch of art i've been working on behind the scenes......

otherwise, just another weird/surreal week in my life......

cheers,

cb

the endless struggle.........

if you look at this image, you'll see parasites, dead fish, lightning and people in gas masks....but really, what this piece is about, is the endless struggle between two cultures......

oscar wilde and dorian gray

if oscar wilde were alive today, he'd be a rockstar.

this photo is over one hundred years old.

isn't that crazy? it looks like it could've been taken today.

i've always heard of oscar wilde, but never had the time or excuses to check his work out.

without people like this man, pushing literary and social boundaries, we'd still be in the victorian era.

yeesh.

cb