jayda

jayda.

my baby.

she was born when my granny was leaving this place, this time, this world, this galaxy, this human experience.

my granny was 99.

she had 9 kids that survived.

she was born on the ninth month

in 1909.

she saw the world go from horse and buggy to jets, internet, satellite teevee and everything else in between.

i wonder what my daughter will see.

ya ya

i've had a pretty rough week, emotional, insane and busy as hell with work....

two of my cousins told me about our grannie's final moments, and her last breath.

been lucky enough to be in a room when a soul enters, that miracle of childbirth, but never really been there when one soul leaves.......it's intense.

hopefully, that won't happen to yours truly or you for that matter.

in the meantime, love the ones you love while you can. every single damn day matters.

louis vuitton

we are entertaining ourselves to death.

even though, there is nothing ever good on t.v.

the spirit world

these are among the very last images of my grandmother, my ya ya and my daughter jayda bose.

i remember my grandfather telling me, when one soul enters this world, another must leave......and he died shortly thereafter, and then, my brother timothy was born......

i miss my grandpa, my spa-puh la, and my ya ya........icons in my life.....gone forever?

death's first kiss

ah, amour, don't we remember it so well? that first kiss......that last kiss......

kamloops indian residential school

the flames always burn bright.....and the faces in the flames just happened to be there when i worked on this piece.......

i sort of feel strangely out of place right now, and don't really know what my next move is going to be...........

living in the desert, in this town that i love and hate, has provided many opportunities, but i feel it's time is coming to and end, and to get to the next place in my life, i'll have to move......but how, and where?

ska-lu-la is always watching, always waiting.......

hocus pocus and other lore says the ska-lu-la is always out there in the darkness, waiting.....when my mum was a kid, they were often told not to whistle or sing certain songs or the ska-lu-la would come to get them.....

i've heard this tale told 'round the world.......

eyes of the galaxy

thinking a bit about deep space, life, death and the silly distractions that get in the way of creating life/art/raising kids.......

a perfect day

here's my first video......i can finally make the films i want.......the way i see them......

the more you are the less you become.....

i have bad dreams......

the doctor is waiting......

modern medicine is yet another in a line of quick fixes and one hour solutions to spiraling, dangerous world......

the endless struggle.....

the struggle of love and understanding is endless between the man and the woman........

the dust bowl......

the carnival is in town, just i've begun to watch season one of carnivale

sweet.....

spence's bridge

this is a place called spence's bridge.....it's hot and isolated.....my great grandfather is supposedly in this picture......top row, second from left......he was a chief.......

feeling lucky?

there are times when we feel we have it all, and times when we feel we have fuck all.

tonight, amidst the fires, the chaos, the madness of everything and everyone's sad little stories including my own....i feel like i've pissed a lot of good things away.

even though, by all accounts, i'm a pretty god damned lucky son of a bitch.

still, a one more chance......to make things right......to say the right things......to feel that embrace one last time......

fire.

i'm getting pretty god damn sick of all this fucking fire and smoke.

six months of winter. 3 months of 35 plus.

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flames.

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me wishing the hell i was outta here.

closing time

there are billions per year spent on getting some action. billions.

think about that.

billions. booze. drugs. action. live fast. die hard. fuckers.

kamloops, bc.

close to the heart of it all.

dark loops

here is a nearly finished version of 'dark loops' that psychorhan and i have been working on the past few weeks......

dig!

deadwood