30 days into this project.

well, 'officially' i'm thirty days into this project.

but, really, i started this idea the first week of december, 2008.

back in a time, when i was feeling trapped in what should have been a dream job, but instead, it turned out to be a nightmare. i hated my boss. the idiotic, double take rigid, moronic rules, the obsession with 'optics', which means, 'if i see you at your desk, then i feel you are working' even though i could have been playing video games or pissing around. the negativity, it even affected my health, ( i was constantly sick!), mental health (stressed and miserable!) and every facet of my life. fortunately, i reached the end of my contract and bowed out without much of a fight. i haven't felt this good in over a year since leaving that place.

so, what that means is, do what you love. do what you are good at. too many of us, i feel just do what it takes, the means to an end. which, actually is frightening sounding when you say it slowly. means.....to.......an.......end........

i wondered what had happened to the creative things i used to do, so i started tinkering with the idea of posting something online every day for a year. it'll get my chops back up, and that way, i can at least look back at it hopefully remember some of it.

now i'm trying to figure out how to make a difference, and do something positive with my life instead of pissing it away. which i often feel i have been doing for so long.

this blog helps do that.