it's the day after valentines, and everyone in a relationship probably has a romance hangover. i, being single and loving it, do not and feel great!
i've been single for awhile now, and it really took some getting used to, especially since i spent the better part of 15 years in relationships. i was a serial monogamist. but that is over. haha!
now, i dedicate my life to my kids, and my creative endeavours, which are very consuming and very busy. suffice it to say, i was getting really sick of hearing about online dating, and tips for finding that "special someone," on cbc radio yesterday. i didn't get it. who cares? the older i get, the more i'm beginning to realize that getting there and finding absolution, finding the meaning of life, finding creative satisfaction, finding job satisfaction and all that, is dependent upon one thing. you.
well, not only that, but how much you dedicate to finding your way, and i can only stress to people, there's a ten thousand hour theory at work here. if you really want something to be the main focus in your life, it takes about ten thousand hours to get there. i had coffee yesterday with a friend who said, "i'm living the dream," which kind of made me laugh. i guess so, maybe, but to me, i'm just doing what i love, and have dedicated myself to pretty much my whole life. it's taken forever to get here, and now that i'm here, there is no excuses. i make art everyday, or write every day, or make music every day because that is what i do and am good at. relationships, friendships, family and supposed "real" work, i kinda suck at, because part of being an artist, a so-called "professional" artist requires complete dedication. that said, not everyone is going to "make it," and it really boils down to 1% actually being able to make a living off of their creative endeavours. in reality, i sell very little art, because people don't really give a shit about art, they care about the person behind the art, the story, and where they came from to be where they are today.
basically, i make my living from workshops, commissions, and fees from exhibitions, or projects. i think i've only sold about 6 - 10 works, well, maybe more, in the past couple years, and if i were to base my income solely on that, i'd be totally screwed. i've got 4 kids to support, and that's a tough thing to do in any job world, let alone creativity.
not that i'm bitching, i just wanted to share a different point of view, a different reality and what goes on behind the iron curtain of the art world.........
in the meantime, enjoy this new work about a girl standing on a skull.
all the bets,
cb
rad david choe book below.
inspiring.
and funny as hell to read!
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