i really enjoy going to them, but i'm glad when i leave.....
so, this morning i watched the "Assassination of Jesse James by the coward Robert Ford" and can't believe it's already been three years since that film was released.....in many ways it feels like i'm getting nothing accomplished......god, that's the haunting guilt of being an artist.
watching that film was really interesting, and i picked up more on it this time, than previously......like the scene where Nick Cave is playing acoustic guitar in the saloon, knocking Robert Ford and Ford loses it.......priceless......
i guess what i recognized or perhaps, realized from the movie, was time is fleeting, it's always passing faster than we can comprehend and all to often at the end of the day, or month or year, we either realize we've missed a lot of amazing things, or we don't and keep making stupid mistakes and losing a lot of ground.......i feel i am stuck somewhere in the middle.....i constantly (?) realize the past ten years have flown by in my life, and there's many things i've missed. i guess i'm a late bloomer.
what i do miss, is waking up and seeing my kids......first thing in the morning, hearing them thump and jump down the hall, and bang pots and pans, and generally make a ruckuss first thing......
i love the idea of family, but putting it into practice, i do suck at! so perhaps it's better i'm alone, until i figure out the whole relationship dynamics thing with a partner.......
well, that's enough of my guts spilled for you dear readers, friends, fans and the like,
until tomorrow,
safe travels
cb
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