i'm feeling a bit blue, which is the reason why i re-posted that song and video......the short winter song from 2 years ago on this very blog.
haven't slept much tonight, a few hours maybe, and i've decided to sit up and drink tea and look through old photos, and feel, i dunno, a mixture of haunted, sadness and torn up bits of confusion. i miss my kids something fierce, and can't help but wonder if i'm making the right decisions in life. i keep being all mumbly joe about the past and what haunts us, because i can't seem to shake this feeling that i've left them for an education in the world. their mum and i are probably beyond redemption, and resolution, and it's quite sad. so, i keep pushing on in life, and hoping for the best, and that in some way i'm kicking open doors for my kids to follow, but there's no guarantee right? sigh, it all feels a bit mis-directed at four in the morning and you're feeling low. sigh, i guess for the moment, i'll have to soldier on and keep moving.
i reckon i'll figure it out.
in the meantime, looking at all the photos, especially the past two years, my god, all the places and faces, the highs and the lows.......maybe i'm supposed to keep moving, and that's just the reality of it?
in the meantime, have a look at some photos and i'll see you down the road i'm sure......
cheers,
cb
ps: and please don't misinterpret anything i've said, i've had a quite enough of that the last couple days, it never ceases to amaze me how one thing said typed out can be reinterpreted as totally something else. i'm about ready to quit things and move on, i've already had enough of the drama i'm currently being submitted to..........
secwepemc road
cris derksen
ava and seth 2009
video shoot
can't remember where
galiano island, i always go here when i'm on the island, best sunsets ever.
me pushing the car being filmed by maggie, while all the others stood around! ha ha!
GIFTS school on galiano
Montague Bay, red rock crabs, oysters and clams. yum.
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