my new album is done-ish.....and ready......

here's the cover art, albeit, temporary art for my new album, which i'm temporarily calling "Burning in Water, Drowning in Flame."

it's spoken word, but the comparisons to tom waits and leonard cohen have already slapped my face and i'm cool with that......it could be worse lolz.......

anyway, i recorded it this past summer by myself, in the grips of fear, determination and self-loathing, and i did all the vocals in one morning, most of them in one take......

the music took a couple months.......

check it out here:

www.myspace.com/paganmachine


but, i'm already working on another album, it will be live, feature singing, collaborations, recorded off the floor and hopefully will be done and released or ready for release by january.......end of january......it has to find a good home, and a tour and all that sort of stuff, and i'm busy promoting my book so, you know......it'll happen when it happens.....either way, i'm pretty goddamned happy right now with the way things are going!!

at last.


cb

red skulls equal DANGER!!!!

idle worship....

we all live, love, hope and ultimately, die.

well, at least some of us.....suckers.......


cb

i'm working on some cool video stuff......at least, i think it's cool......

my youtube channel 'coz i can't upload videos any more here.....

a memorial.......

this is a historical commission i've been working on for a few weeks now, and it's gone through it's fare share of changes, but ultimately, it's worth it and i really like this particular image..........reading it is a bit heartbreaking though, because it's a hundred years old, and really, the chasm between native and non-native people is still as wide and bottomless as ever.....sigh........

re: lost art....

i was just sorta flipping through this blog, and can't believe all the friggen art on it.....there's so much stuff i don't even remember doing, i don't know if that's good or back, but still......wow, but i've been hammering away at it every day for year, so, i would hope i've got something to show for it......

i'm going to post some new stuff tonight and get back at it.....

cb

your past times, consisted of the strange, and twisted and deranged, and i liked that little game you called, crying lightning......

re: small towns......

man,

it seems like i've been here forever, but i've only been home three weeks, give or take a few days here and there away.......i really need to get it together and finish this album i'm working on.....all original tracks, bass, drums, guitars, vox.....catchy stuff......it's gonna be like a native version of faith no more......

tonight i drove around for about an hour, listening to the arctic monkeys, the sword and mark lanegan......at times, a small town seems so empty, so claustrophobic, and plain old dull......everything shuts down at six bells....

last night i had my kids and it was so amazing, god, when they go home it's such a big come down for me. i talked with their mum, and she told me i don't have to see or deal with what happens after i drop them off.....but, really, i do, because my life suddenly gets so hollow, and sometimes i just want to die coz it's so hard to be without them.

i miss my family so much, and i realize a lot of the mistakes i've made in the past with my ex, and i feel ashamed sometimes.......that i was so stupid. so stubborn. ack, just thinking about it makes me burn with shame....so many times in my life i've pissed it away, but not anymore.....i know the older you get, the less life and the cosmos gives to you, and starts taking.....but i'd give anything to have my kids, my family back......you know those moments in life that shine so bright, you never want those precious times to end.....

i should just shut up and get some sleep. no art today folks, i've been working with video stuff the past few days, but strangely, as i mentioned in the previous post, can't seem to upload any video anymore....wtf?

will be start working on new bold directions in my art very soon, so long as a potential key person doesn't back out......here's two fingers crossed on that one......

take care y'all......


cb

re: hmmmmm

well, i wanted to post some of the new video stuff i've been doing.....and for some reason, i can't. weird. so i'll post it on my internet channel and post the link i guess.....

damn.

eye love technology....

a few years ago, i was a total luddite, my ex and i shunned t.v., society, the corporations and all evil's we could handle and were basically vegan, anti-corporate, self-employed whackos......i busked all the time to make rent and bills, we learned how to can food, make sauces and jams, and basically lived a really healthy life. we got 'into' each other and lived a quiet life, it was great. then it ended, as all romance, love, lust and such invariably do reach a finite conclusion.

now, i'm a lover of technology, and my life is inextricably connected into the machines.....and it's really strange and challenging to go a day without technology and the internet.......my last hold out is the cell phone and i'm fighting getting one all the way......

but what i could use is an assistant......someone to help book gigs, tours, help with exhibitions, readings and workshops.......if you know that person who would be willing to do that and get paid, let me know.......

'coz all this administration is a nightmare.......

cb

re: today.....

the sauce. i've put it to rest. feel better, more focused and clear. it's great. it's amazingly beautiful outside today......i'm going to go outside and film while the light is good......i also feel more honest, i am under pressure to be a role model, a good one, and being on the sauce, you make bad decisions, do dumb things, wrong things, sometimes hurtful things to yourself and other people, they lose faith and trust in you, and in short, you can really fuck things up. i fucked up a great deal this past year, but i also had great successes that fueled me to realize a few things before i self-destructed.

and i didn't want to go there, that's a lame place to be, and when you twist things up and make a general mess of your life, sometimes you are left with regret or sorrow. about a month or more ago, i woke up one morning feeling at peace with life. i accepted a few things that were holding me back, my relationship that had finally succumbed to the waves, the struggles to accept it and move on, and what my responsibilities are to my kids and the people i work with when i'm on the road. it was like i put down a heavy burden, a sackful of anguish that was tormenting me. a lot of people have believed in me, and i thank them so much for that, you have gotten me through dark and tough times this year, over many years in fact, and to the people i've hurt, i can only apologize so much and then i have to let things go before they burden my soul, my mind too much and hold me down or back from manifesting this trip into what it's supposed to be instead of what it could have been.

sigh, that's where i'm at today. wish me luck. and......good luck to you dear reader, bonne chance......

cb

worshipping at the temple of desire.....

time is passing by and i know it and feel it every day......

oh yah!

i made this awhile back and forgot to post it......

the more things change, the more they don't....all this impending olympic madness.....hype.....

Stone the Crow!

here's my new book, stone the crow, and the cool cover!!

http://kegedonce.com/book_detail.php?BookID=102

check it out and order your copy now!!!

cb

Stone the Crow is released by Kegedonce Press!!!

stone the crow link!!! check it out!!!

Stone the Crow is released by Kegedonce Press!!!

hey y'all,

my first book of poetry has been just released by Kegedonce Press, ten years and more of poetry......

here's a link to it, so go now!

 http://www.kegedonce.com/book_detail.php?BookID=102

GO and check it out!!!

read the reviews!!!


and please do buy a copy, it's christmas time, and everyone needs some good, edgy poems to make life sweeter!!!!

chrisbose.

skull blade eye

time is moving on and waits for no one......

space, time, and death....

it's friday the 13th, how could i not do a post about mortality?

thee eye

jayda.

first nations film nights....i run'em.....

i'm organizing some first nations film nights here at TRU.......

today, i was having a coffee and doing some work on my laptop.....and noticed i was surrounded by boomer women......it was unnerving......i don't work a normal job, through hard work and being creative, i've been exempted from that pill, that universal alibi, but i am always busy, getting gigs and lining up workshops and what have ye, apparently, i'm part of the "creative economy".....so what this means is, i'm often the only younger dude out and about this smallish town called kamloops......during the working hours........it's not so obvious in larger centers, because there is a larger variety of jobs and hours people keep......it's weird nonetheless to be busy doing something and looking up from your laptop to discover you're surrounded by ravenous  hordes of zombie boomers blabbing about shit that ain't even real or matters......we all live in various bubbles......some of us choose to look around to see what else is going on sometimes........

meh, whatever.

soul realization........

i'm entering a weird new era in my life where fast cars, guitars and loud music seem to be dominating right now........

keep you posted......told you things would be changing......i can feel it in the air........

bug eyed

choices.......we all have to make them........

choices, life is about choices.......today mine is a fast car or a beautiful woman, or spirituality?

i think i'll take all three thank you very much.........


cb

in it's right place........

the first chris bose died somewhere on a battlefield in europe in 1916, sometime during the fall season.
i am the third chris bose to come down the line, and though there are no "great" wars in my lifetime, i am part of the larger struggle for equality and justice for the first nations of canada. we are the hidden history, there is still a staggeringly large divide between majority and minority canada in every way you can imagine: financially, health, education, freedom, and equality.

on seemingly random another note, i just picked up the deluxe re-release of radiohead's album "KID A" and it seems like just yesterday i was waiting anxiously for it. that was oct 3, 2000 it came out, which in some ways feels like a lifetime ago. i was living on battle street, downtown across from the WW I and II cenotaph. i distinctly recall the day it came out, i was up and out the door to buy it from "Spinner's" record store, which is long gone. anyways, i remember getting back home, it was a beautiful fall day, the leaves in the trees in the park beside my house were gold and orange, like a fire, and i had a coffee as i listened to it, and will never forget those first five notes of the keyboard in the first song, " Everything in it's right place." it's hard to believe that was nine years ago. that was an influential moment in my life, a turning point, because it made me re-evaluate my pre-conceptions of music, and tore down what i knew about radiohead. a point of reinvention, something i do constantly and consistently, usually without reflection.

the fall season is always a time of reflection for me, the seasons are changing, the leaves turning colour and the weather cools down, usually after a super intense summer here in the 'loops. that was an interesting fall, the one of 2000, my roommate was shane henley and we both were just out of the wreck's of relationships with our spouses. partying was definitely on our horizon, and somehow i survived the thoroughly wicked debauchery, e.g., that halloween i was decked out as a nun for the party we had and it was pretty crazy. i notice life goes in cycles, i have a real high period of accomplishments and success of some kind, followed by a lull while i experiment with reinvention.......

outside the sky is clear and beautiful, i've got three meetings today, a book coming out within weeks and i know this is another period of transformation......into what i don't know.......hopefully it'll be a hell of a ride.......

cheers,


cb

the wilfrid laurier memorial

sir wilfrid laurier.....

re: article in the georgia straight.....

hey y'all,

recently, i took part in a really cool program with the Gulf Islands Film and Television School (G.I.F.T.S) where we worked with 12 First Nations 16-38 to mentor them and show them how to use the internet as a place to show and tell the world their stories, to connect with other FN, and generally bridge that digital chasm we seem to have in front of us........

the Georgia Straight just published an article about it, do check it out!

http://straight.com/article-268228/first-nations-youth-get-schooled-digital-media-new-program

it was a lot of fun, the kids were great, my co-mentor, Tracie Louttit, was really cool to work with and G.I.F.T.S. was above and beyond anything I could have expected, I am a total believer in the film school and the programs they run. plus, they really do care about what they do and are passionate about the causes they support........

basically, I have created my dream job, I work with FN youth in technology, empowerment and finding and expressing their voice through creativity. what could be better than that?

oh, and for politicians beat their chests and howl out loud for everyone to hear " Youth represent the Future!"
let's see you get in the trenches with me for awhile, and put your money where your mouth is........

now to pack and get ready to go home........


cheers,


chrisbose.