re: photos

hello friends, fans, lovers, loved ones and the like,

guh, must have been going crazy last night, hence the previous post, my apologies, every now and then, you go crazy as an artist. it just happens. too much time in the mancave as i call it, and it'll make you nuts.

anywho, here's a series of photos i took over the past month, and i'm getting down to some new art, i needed a break i guess, just wasn't compelled or driven to do new art for some reason. needed to recharge? refocus? do other things? probably.

in the meantime, hope you dig it!

cb

My art up at TRU in the Brown building, library or whatever it's called.

Hurtin' for cash, thinking of sell these books i found while on the road

the leonard cohen one is a 1978 1st Edition hardcover i found in Regina, Sask!

the Vitalogy i found somewhere and it's from 1930! 

a hilarious read!

Tom Waits hanging tree.

Deer Trail, up a crazy steep hillside! 

My Daughter.

My daughter.

Old Snag, following a deer trail I shot this photo.

Peterson Creek Bridge, just before i ducked under to document the graffiti under there!

Deep breathing can save your life apparently?!

me with four pieces of art that were in Montreal....so stoked to have them back!!!

buy them! they are for sale!

and this just cracked me up, i don't know how many times i went through this shit in relationships.

never again! click on the photo to read it! hilarious!c

re: karma and success?

hello friends, fans, family, foe, liars, douchebags, lovers, and the like,

success, what does it mean?

i dunno, i mean, there is never any sort of feeling that you've fucken "arrived" at successes and fates doorway, it's just a nod of the head and a continual charge forward towards fucken oblivion, really.

people couldn't fucken care less, because they're wrapped up in they're own oblivion. So, what does that mean? Well, i guess that means, if you're at the stage where you're getting paid to do what you love to do creatively, instead of swinging a hammer, crankin' a wrench, diggin' a hole, smashing a cash register full of cash that ain't yours, hearing the clang of dishes, or generally some douchebag yellin' over your volume about what a shite job you are doing, then i guess you ain't fully realizing what you're potential is as a human being.

i've never, ever had that feeling that i've arrived, no, that's a fucken lie, when i got my first book deal back in 2005, when my life changed and i only look back in trepidation, i will never forget climbing the top of a mountain and playing this song by the datsuns........ever since then, it's been hell, but a hell i fight for every day.....

it was hazy daze on my mind ever since then, but it felt good to get that deal, to get that far, when most of my life i was told i'd never succeed and i'd be a failure. fuck them, those evil twats that said that, coz i see them now, and they're life hasn't changed, and my life continues to evolve, to grow, to see, to realize many things.

once was a failure, now seen ten times, twenty times, hell, a hundred times, a thousand times more than what i thought i would and anyone else would ever see, little wonder, my first book in 2005 was a memoir.

i remember reading on tour with all these geezers, who'd say to me, what gall i had writing a memoir in my early 30's. haha, i'd already lived 10 or 20 times they're lives, once they heard my stories, they shut the hell up....

now, i slog on, and move forward, because all the momentum carries me towards a future i want, and a future we'll all realize......

cheers,


cb.

re: installation preview.

hello friends, fans, foe, and lovers,

re: crazy cutz from another crazy coyote......

hello friends, fans, foe, lovers and the like,

check out my bro's nacoma 'combz' george's website,

http://www.crazycutz.ca/

he's been an awesome dude to me, lending me gear to get my films and songs done, without his help, i'd be screwed! check out his site, support his music and keep on rockin' in the bannockland!

cheeeeeeeers,


cb

re: new songs for the old ceremony.

Hello friends, fans, foe and lovers,

well, it's about time i decided to something like this, which is post my music online in raw, demo form and invite people and friends to have a listen and contribute, suggest stuff, etc.

so, without fanfare or trouble, here is the link to said demo page, check it out,

http://soundcloud.com/cbdemos-1

i just recorded two songs on galiano island, so i'll be uploading those as well, and a pretty little ditty i found on my phone and do not remember when i recorded it....

until next time lovers,


cb

re: galiano island and G.I.F.T.S.

hello friends, fans, foe, and lovers,

been on galiano 8 days or so, and it's been fun, leaving in a few days, back to high desert country and some rest. we've got five film projects on the go, and it's been awesome and intense. the kids have been great, but i feel like a bit of a geezer! haha, and it just ain't all in your mind! it's your body, the aches and pains! running, jumping, climbing crazy locations and sets!

anyways, we were just chilling out last night to a huge bonfire and started playing with long exposure shots in total darkness with the flash going off randomly!

here's my epic photograph!

until next time,

my daughter, whom i miss very much when i'm on the road.

this is a couple years ago, and i've missed a lot being away.

until next time,

cb

cb

re: Jesus Coyote at ImagineNative Film Festival....

hello friends, fans, lovers, foe and the like,

don't be jealous, or hate me, because my good friend Jesus Coyote is making a rare Toronto appearance at the ImagineNative Film Festival, and not only that, he's going to make waves at the TIFF lightbox, in cinema 2.....be there or be square.....

until next time lovers,


cb

http://www.imaginenative.org/program.php?id=100

below are some screenshots from "Jesus Coyote TeeVee" which is a play on "TeePee" i can't believe no one fucking noticed that! WTF!?

re: galiano island and G.I.F.T.S.

hello friends, fans, foe and lovers,

i'm down at Galiano Island right now, working at the Gulf Islands Film and Television School....it's my 3 year being here as a mentor and i love it and look forward to it every year. This place has a vibe, the island, the school, the people here, and it's not to be missed if you ever get the chance to get here, do it! What I do is mentor First Nations youth during their Aboriginal Film Intensive, which is 2 weeks every Fall, but I also believe they do a Summer course as well, you should totally check it out.

We're in the middle of scriptwriting right now, and will begin production today and for the next several days, and editing next week. It's great, the only distraction is the beauty of the island, which is immense.

Keep ya posted kiddies!


CB

looking west from galiano over towards saltspring island.

a cool sign for a gallery in galiano....

massive shrooms...

the compound at G.I.F.T.S.

interpretive dance at G.I.F.T.S.

the legendary Van at G.I.F.T.S. which i totally got

doing a Tokyo drift around a sweet corner....kidding....

the Bunkhouse

in the meantime kids, see you real soon!

re: real enough.....

the devil comes in many shapes.

hello friends, fans, foe, and lovers,

a friend of mine remarked that reading my blog that it seemed like hard times, but real times, and yes, i would have to agree. but it's not as bad as it seems, even during dry spells such as this, and really, i'm a working class artist, so what do i expect? haha! limo's and caviar? that'd be nice, but it ain't my reality right now! and despite being broke ass right now, i'm actually feeling pretty good. living a healthier lifestyle these days, getting exercise, quit smoking, quit drinking, don't do drugs, so life is fairly clean right now. my only weakness is deep fried peanut butter sandwiches at midnight, but shhh.....(kidding, that'd be a quick route to the grave!!)

anyways, one thing i've been thinking about, is that during these stretches between cheques, is wondering why i've got ideas galore when i'm on the road, i'll do this, and that, and the other thing, but as soon as i get back to kamloops, it's oblivion and all my dreams sort of crumble and fade away. when i'm away, i feel hope, but when i get back home, i'm faced with some reality i can't escape. or a nightmare i can't escape. i'll sort it out though, don't worry lovers.

hell, on days like that, i at least have a wealth of images and footage i've shot while traveling, that get me through these lean times, reminding me it won't last forever.

so, on that note, i'd like to say i'm heading back on the road for a couple weeks down to the Gulf Islands Film and Television School to mentor during the Aboriginal Media Intensive. It's my 3rd year in a row doing this gig, and it's got to be one of my favourites, because Galiano Island is like no other, a real beautiful place, and i get to work with Aboriginal youth from all over BC and this year, i heard from NWT!

there are lot of things going on, i'm actually finally working on a decent album of new roots metal type songs, heavy but with a groove, and there are nice acoustic flourishes, as well as cool beats and ambient noise happening......i was supposed to go Toronto after i was done at the Gulf Islands Film School, but i figured no, it just ain't the time, even though i would have been at the ImagineNative film festival, they're screening my "Jesus Coyote TeeVee," film, which would have been cool to see the crowd's reaction to that fucken film, but i don't have the cash for one, and i'll get there when the time is right. i spent a lot of time in Toronto last year, and don't mind not being there much this year. but next year i'll kick it's ass. you'll see.

in the meantime, check out the vids, and think about something positive to get you through the dark days of fall and winter,


cb
ps: if luongo screws it up again, he should be voted off of the island, and i mean turtle island. last season's stanley cup playoffs was a travesty! goal after goal going in! what the hell?!?!

re: wall street protests!

hello friends, fans, lovers and the like,

wow, I just gotta say it's exciting times! protests on wall street, spreading to other places in the globe! wowowowowowow!

let's keep the momentum going!

as this blog will eventually be a time capsule, i wanna post some photos i've found online of these events!

i'm going to do a series of protest art too, if i can't be in NYC for the protests, i can do my part to spread the vibe!

i'm so glad people are waking up to the absurdity our system functions under......get involved, do your part! keep the momentum going!


cheers,


cb

re: All Hallow's Eve

Greetings friends, fans, lovers, foe and assorted nuts,

I love Autumn, it's a beautiful season, smoky, darker earlier, cool mornings, and great scary movies come out! So, in that spirit, below is a All Hallow's Eve image i have been trying to get done all week, but i've been sick, tormented and busy with other things. namely, trying to figure out how to get 16 demo's of songs off of my so called "smartphone" onto a mac, and into logic software to make some skeleton tracks. Success!! 

and i've been listening to the new Mastodon album, i love the art, a guy named J Fosik, and he creates the art piece by piece, cut out with a fancy scroll saw or something. unbelievable amount of work, and talk about dedication to your craft? wow!

anyways, i've been continuing to toil away in relative obscurity, vexed and exhausted by empty promises from people promising the world, but able to schlepp it off and shrug when things don't work out, or the money doesn't come through, because it was no sweat off their back. It just leaves me fucking scrambling to make rent, food and bills, plus taking care of my kids. Speaking of bills, i haven't paid my phone bill in about 3 months, and i gotta get new Autumn clothes for my kids, so if you've seen some art you like, contact me!! haha! no, for real, i gots bills to pay! 

and i can't pay them in hugs or marshmellows!

well, below is my new work, and some things that made me laugh my ass off this past week, it's been a struggle keeping my neck above the water financially, but i'm sure that'll change in the new year, it's just getting there that's tough work! it features Aleister Crowley, once thought to be the wickedest man alive, but he died alone, poor and with various STD's.......haha! bummer!

Below, as an artist for most of my adult life, i still am frustrated that i am a 20 year plus "emerging artist" and so the grants i can apply for are skint, it's a glass ceiling, which means, it's challenging to get ahead in this business, and don't think it's not a business boys and girls, it is a ruthless fucking business, where the white-collar vipers would use your name, your art, your status in an instant, and fuck you over, kill you and leave you for dead if they thought they could get ahead of your fetid, rotting corpse for one shining moment. yep, it's ruthless. 

Trust only a contract, once it's signed, but get in and out as fast as possible, the longer you stay, the more you pay, and trust your instincts, if it seems sketchy, or unlikely to happen, then it probably is a waste of fucking time. I'm about ready to cocoon up for the winter, and spend it creating new work, and slogging it out in construction or whatever i can, just so i can regain my independence. focus kids, focus!

Check the tight work of J Fosik in a recent issue of, you guessed it, Hi-Fructose!

In the meantime boys and girls, keep on rocking in the whatever world. and keep getting out there, and reading stuff, seeing stuff, listening to stuff, and such, it's a big beautiful world out there......

cb

re: the truth

hello friends, fans, foe and lovers,

here's something i've been chipping away at this past week,

enjoy!

cb

re: the pledge.

hello friends, fans, lovers, ex's and the like......

here's another new work i've been chipping away at lately, things are getting a bit hectic, just wrapping up 65 grand in grant writing proposals, if i get one or two grants, that would be smashing, i need to start exploring new directions in my film and art, music and writing too.....i need to sit and record a proper album of new stuff.

anyways, i'm back at construction, i like it, not a bit of drama, just laughs and hard work, actually, not even that hard, but i ain't getting any younger, so you won't hear me complaining! plus, i'm working with a good crew, and that makes all the difference. it's been over five years since i've done this, so we'll see how long this old coyote lasts, if i can give'r until xmas, i'm laughing.

sort of.

in the meantime, i'm working on new things and life is good, all the bets suckas!

cb

re: the prestige

Greetings friends, fans, lovers, foe and the like,

how goes it? i'm well, sort of, heading back to work in construction for awhile, need to catch up on some bills post haste, and i need a break from the art world. people want to do things, and have ideas or promises, but those things do not pay rent or bills. at least, not in the immediate.

been thinking about the future, what does it hold? how long can i keep doing this? i need to get myself a house, and some money saved for the future. today in line at a grocery store, i watched several elderly people paying for their groceries, and i noticed how they were super precise about their purchases. it reminded me that i too might be fortunate enough to get old, but i should begin socking some money away.

who is going to look after me? who will be there for me? how will i retire? these are questions i'm asking myself more and more lately.

anyways, until i figure out some concrete plans, i'll keep slogging away at artwork and everything else until i hatch a plan.

enjoy this new work, it's very layered and hypnotic, i can't wait to print it. and is very much about the upcoming prophetic 2012.

adieu,

cb

re: more new art!

hello friends, fans, lovers, foe and the like,


here's a new work i've been chipping away at for awhile, but i've got about five more on the way.

it's part of a new series i'm working on as part of the Ullus Collective's pictograph prophesy and will be printed and exhibited in Penticton, BC and Kelowna, BC at the Alternator Centre as well as a projection installation.

dig it!

cheers,


cb

re: new art

greetings friends, fans, foe, lovers and the like,

i'm back at it, creating new art, getting ready for an upcoming series of shows in Penticton, Kelowna, and Kamloops.

this is stuff just to get me going again, as i've hardly done anything in a month. and a long month it's been.

in the meantime lovers,

cb

re: the road.

hell-o friends, fans, lovers, ex's and foe,

haven't been posting much i've realized, computer problems, and i've been on the road for a month or so. time passes quickly when traveling, but i will get back at it shortly, once i get my 'puter fixed up.

what can i say, being an artist is a tough slog, because you're never just an "artist."

you've gotta be a PR person, constantly carrying the flag into battle and schmoozing up new gigs or clients, you've got to be a manager, booking gigs and arranging transportation and accommodations, as well as a researcher, delving into new technology and techniques, while simultaneously working to keep you chops up in an ever competitive world, and personal assistant, taking care of all the little tasks that need to be done to keep your ship running smoothly. it's endless and exhausting, and when you're not on the road, you ain't making a living, so you're constantly struggling against two worlds, the home world and the road world, which are impossibly different places to be at both times.

one lifestyle is domestic, take out the trash, do the dishes, pick up after the kids, banking, get in line for groceries, while the other lifestyle is a hectic, rock 'n' roll, mish mass of panic, and what i call the "hurry up and wait," syndrome at venues, galleries, theatres, hotel lobby's, hotel rooms, cabs, airport skybars, and of course, there's quite a lot of imbibing of spirits to pass the time in between it all. So, in getting home, there needs to be a little bit of 'downtime' to change gears and adjust to being a civilian again, instead of a frontline foot soldier in the trenches of the art, music, literary, and film world where people are throwing "culture bombs" at you in attempts to make you prove your worth, or send you back to relative obscurity and slavery.


myself, i've been on the road a good three years solid, traveling pretty much consistently across canada and a few forays into the states doing what i love doing, making art, or films, or music or writing. i haven't had much time to reflect on it, because when you're in the 'now' you have no time to look back on things, goals, accomplishments, missed ships and the like. but lately, i've been doing something a bit different, and that is abstaining from my good friend alcohol, and it's been treating me right. on the road, you can develop a voracious appetite for good spirits for a variety of reasons: missing home, missing friends or family, the love of a good time, and so on. it isn't a bad thing, i think it helps keep you sane and decompresses the mind from a high stress lifestyle in a lot of ways, but sometimes, differentiating between a "good time" on the road and a "good time" at home can be very, very different things. i guess what i'm saying is i'm slowing down and it's a good thing, because i was going very hard traveling and living for a few years, and i realize i am mortal, and have a multitude of responsibilities that i must take care of, dangling modifiers aside.

i quite like this new lifestyle i'm adjust to, it's not the home life, but tee-totaling it, because i'm up early in the morning now, not feeling like death warmed over, and i can feel a nice clarity coming out of a fog of frantic traveling. As well, for some reason, I’ve got all this damn energy, so I’ve been hiking a lot and trying to figure out what to do with myself while I my computer gently weeps in a mac repair lab…….well, here are some photos from the road....enjoy......(i should do a travel blog as well!)

 i love and at the same time, hate flying.

 a total bitch

 what kind of house are you? i like victoria era houses, but hate queen victoria.

 my view from my hotel in victoria

 awesome graffiti i saw in vernon

 one of the last things i built while still a construction worker, a ramp and elevator shaft in james bay, victoria, i built it with a guy named "critter," a weirdo whose wife was a "deprogrammer"  yeah, that kind of deprogrammer, the kind that screams at you in a cheap motel "you are not a religious freak, cult-member!!" weird eh?

 good art comes in many forms

 some cool graf i saw in montreal recently, which victoria was strangely devoid of.....

anyways, travel is good for the soul, and i may bitch about it because i see a lot of airports, but not them big breaks or super fat pay cheques i'm starting to realize i want and am ready for more and more. plus, i've got kids, and i've missed three years of birthdays, gatherings, celebrations and holidays, and this "emerging" artist status should hopefully start changing sooner than later, because this glass ceiling is very frustrating.......well, until next time lovers,


cb.