hey peeps,
i've been working on some new stuff....i'll post it shortly, been pretty busy doing readings, launching the new book and other things....
but something i've been thinking about a lot lately is, time.....as in, what will i, or you, or your spouse, your mates be doing in five years? it seems to me, most of us let time slide by and nothing much changes......
right now, i'm in a strange place, in that i don't "work" a nine to five job any more, i do contract work and travel often.......i think this is better for me, and for society at large, as i'm no longer a miserable so and so......time goes by so quickly, most of the people i know are doing the exact same thing they were at the start of this century.....it's kinda weird......i can't think of any that have changed their financial, social or academic status, though, many have changed their marital status a couple times.....single moms i know remain single moms, the kids are getting older, the mums are a little more jaded, a little more bitter, but nothing much has changed, single dads become players again, and bought new houses and restarted their lives, people i know in the retail/service industry are still there slaving away for the shit wages, why i don't know, artists and or musicians i've known have either quit and never play or create art anymore, or if they are serious about it, moved to larger centers....and are still trying, writers i know are still creating new stuff and publishing new work..........i've seen marriages come and go, i can count on one hand the "successful" ones.....i've seen so many trends and fads come and go, this town go from a mill town to a call centre town back to a retail town.....i've seen people get addicted and lose it all to a little white rock or a powder.....i've seen some lose it all to the bottle.....and i see some couples struggling with their families and finances......it is so weird to step back from this weird thing called "reality" and watch what's going on around you.....in my world, a week can be the longest amount of time ever, or it flies by unbelievably......all this makes me wonder where my life is going to be in five years......ideally, i'll be on tour playing music or promoting a book....i'm sitting on three manuscripts of creative non-fiction and another book of poetry....not too mention a ton of music......what it all boils down to is getting it out there and done.....five years ago i was working in a field pulling weeds on an organic farm, bitter, tired, broken and sad.....now i'm developing a t.v. series, promoting a book, and getting ready to suck it up and step up to the mic and start creating music and using my voice......it's been a long painful road, and so much has been lost, to gain what i know now.....i miss my family, but i keep moving on......
cb
No comments:
Post a Comment