today

the past year of my life has taken me all over the province, and i've collaborated with a lot of really amazing people, made great new friends, worked with incredibly talented first nations  youth and generally saw and did as much as i possibly could......not bad for starting the year off on the dole...ending it with a book deal, and hopefully more possibilities and opportunities......

i'm starting to feel like that replicant at the end of bladerunner, the last one deckard has to kill....and how he talks about all the things he's seen in his life time......this collection of images is only a few of the thousands i have......a great many were lost, like the time i held a street sermon in my underwear on granville street while standing in front of an x-rated theatre screaming through a megaphone......actually, running around vancity in my underwear for some reason.......anyways, life is what you make it......so shut up and go for it.......

cb

re: book launch foto

here's a photo of my book launch......from yesterday, i had just arrived back from purolator with a box of books, which i sold all of.....next up is vancity, dec. 13, sunday, 7-9 pm at the grunt gallery......

thanks to jo brown, nathan matthew of the aboriginal education centre at TRU, and ashok mathur of the cicac for promoting and presenting this launch, it was awesome, and by the time i actually started, the place was packed to standing room only.....it was nuts.....and i could do this every day for a year and still want more.....

on another note, i've been a self-employed artist for a year now, i was laid off one week before christmas from my role with the sces, and i wouldn't change a thing career wise. it's been amazing, the places i've seen, the people i've worked with and the projects i've been a part of.....thank you for your support, and i couldn't be here with you!

cheers,


chrisbose.

the advocates of el diablo......

today is the day! we launch my book
"Stone the Crow"
in Kamloops, and on the 13th, we launch it in Vancity......

yippee!!!

my new album is done-ish.....and ready......

here's the cover art, albeit, temporary art for my new album, which i'm temporarily calling "Burning in Water, Drowning in Flame."

it's spoken word, but the comparisons to tom waits and leonard cohen have already slapped my face and i'm cool with that......it could be worse lolz.......

anyway, i recorded it this past summer by myself, in the grips of fear, determination and self-loathing, and i did all the vocals in one morning, most of them in one take......

the music took a couple months.......

check it out here:

www.myspace.com/paganmachine


but, i'm already working on another album, it will be live, feature singing, collaborations, recorded off the floor and hopefully will be done and released or ready for release by january.......end of january......it has to find a good home, and a tour and all that sort of stuff, and i'm busy promoting my book so, you know......it'll happen when it happens.....either way, i'm pretty goddamned happy right now with the way things are going!!

at last.


cb

red skulls equal DANGER!!!!

idle worship....

we all live, love, hope and ultimately, die.

well, at least some of us.....suckers.......


cb

i'm working on some cool video stuff......at least, i think it's cool......

my youtube channel 'coz i can't upload videos any more here.....

a memorial.......

this is a historical commission i've been working on for a few weeks now, and it's gone through it's fare share of changes, but ultimately, it's worth it and i really like this particular image..........reading it is a bit heartbreaking though, because it's a hundred years old, and really, the chasm between native and non-native people is still as wide and bottomless as ever.....sigh........

re: lost art....

i was just sorta flipping through this blog, and can't believe all the friggen art on it.....there's so much stuff i don't even remember doing, i don't know if that's good or back, but still......wow, but i've been hammering away at it every day for year, so, i would hope i've got something to show for it......

i'm going to post some new stuff tonight and get back at it.....

cb

your past times, consisted of the strange, and twisted and deranged, and i liked that little game you called, crying lightning......

re: small towns......

man,

it seems like i've been here forever, but i've only been home three weeks, give or take a few days here and there away.......i really need to get it together and finish this album i'm working on.....all original tracks, bass, drums, guitars, vox.....catchy stuff......it's gonna be like a native version of faith no more......

tonight i drove around for about an hour, listening to the arctic monkeys, the sword and mark lanegan......at times, a small town seems so empty, so claustrophobic, and plain old dull......everything shuts down at six bells....

last night i had my kids and it was so amazing, god, when they go home it's such a big come down for me. i talked with their mum, and she told me i don't have to see or deal with what happens after i drop them off.....but, really, i do, because my life suddenly gets so hollow, and sometimes i just want to die coz it's so hard to be without them.

i miss my family so much, and i realize a lot of the mistakes i've made in the past with my ex, and i feel ashamed sometimes.......that i was so stupid. so stubborn. ack, just thinking about it makes me burn with shame....so many times in my life i've pissed it away, but not anymore.....i know the older you get, the less life and the cosmos gives to you, and starts taking.....but i'd give anything to have my kids, my family back......you know those moments in life that shine so bright, you never want those precious times to end.....

i should just shut up and get some sleep. no art today folks, i've been working with video stuff the past few days, but strangely, as i mentioned in the previous post, can't seem to upload any video anymore....wtf?

will be start working on new bold directions in my art very soon, so long as a potential key person doesn't back out......here's two fingers crossed on that one......

take care y'all......


cb

re: hmmmmm

well, i wanted to post some of the new video stuff i've been doing.....and for some reason, i can't. weird. so i'll post it on my internet channel and post the link i guess.....

damn.

eye love technology....

a few years ago, i was a total luddite, my ex and i shunned t.v., society, the corporations and all evil's we could handle and were basically vegan, anti-corporate, self-employed whackos......i busked all the time to make rent and bills, we learned how to can food, make sauces and jams, and basically lived a really healthy life. we got 'into' each other and lived a quiet life, it was great. then it ended, as all romance, love, lust and such invariably do reach a finite conclusion.

now, i'm a lover of technology, and my life is inextricably connected into the machines.....and it's really strange and challenging to go a day without technology and the internet.......my last hold out is the cell phone and i'm fighting getting one all the way......

but what i could use is an assistant......someone to help book gigs, tours, help with exhibitions, readings and workshops.......if you know that person who would be willing to do that and get paid, let me know.......

'coz all this administration is a nightmare.......

cb

re: today.....

the sauce. i've put it to rest. feel better, more focused and clear. it's great. it's amazingly beautiful outside today......i'm going to go outside and film while the light is good......i also feel more honest, i am under pressure to be a role model, a good one, and being on the sauce, you make bad decisions, do dumb things, wrong things, sometimes hurtful things to yourself and other people, they lose faith and trust in you, and in short, you can really fuck things up. i fucked up a great deal this past year, but i also had great successes that fueled me to realize a few things before i self-destructed.

and i didn't want to go there, that's a lame place to be, and when you twist things up and make a general mess of your life, sometimes you are left with regret or sorrow. about a month or more ago, i woke up one morning feeling at peace with life. i accepted a few things that were holding me back, my relationship that had finally succumbed to the waves, the struggles to accept it and move on, and what my responsibilities are to my kids and the people i work with when i'm on the road. it was like i put down a heavy burden, a sackful of anguish that was tormenting me. a lot of people have believed in me, and i thank them so much for that, you have gotten me through dark and tough times this year, over many years in fact, and to the people i've hurt, i can only apologize so much and then i have to let things go before they burden my soul, my mind too much and hold me down or back from manifesting this trip into what it's supposed to be instead of what it could have been.

sigh, that's where i'm at today. wish me luck. and......good luck to you dear reader, bonne chance......

cb

worshipping at the temple of desire.....

time is passing by and i know it and feel it every day......

oh yah!

i made this awhile back and forgot to post it......

the more things change, the more they don't....all this impending olympic madness.....hype.....

Stone the Crow!

here's my new book, stone the crow, and the cool cover!!

http://kegedonce.com/book_detail.php?BookID=102

check it out and order your copy now!!!

cb

Stone the Crow is released by Kegedonce Press!!!

stone the crow link!!! check it out!!!

Stone the Crow is released by Kegedonce Press!!!

hey y'all,

my first book of poetry has been just released by Kegedonce Press, ten years and more of poetry......

here's a link to it, so go now!

 http://www.kegedonce.com/book_detail.php?BookID=102

GO and check it out!!!

read the reviews!!!


and please do buy a copy, it's christmas time, and everyone needs some good, edgy poems to make life sweeter!!!!

chrisbose.

skull blade eye

time is moving on and waits for no one......

space, time, and death....

it's friday the 13th, how could i not do a post about mortality?

thee eye

jayda.

first nations film nights....i run'em.....

i'm organizing some first nations film nights here at TRU.......

today, i was having a coffee and doing some work on my laptop.....and noticed i was surrounded by boomer women......it was unnerving......i don't work a normal job, through hard work and being creative, i've been exempted from that pill, that universal alibi, but i am always busy, getting gigs and lining up workshops and what have ye, apparently, i'm part of the "creative economy".....so what this means is, i'm often the only younger dude out and about this smallish town called kamloops......during the working hours........it's not so obvious in larger centers, because there is a larger variety of jobs and hours people keep......it's weird nonetheless to be busy doing something and looking up from your laptop to discover you're surrounded by ravenous  hordes of zombie boomers blabbing about shit that ain't even real or matters......we all live in various bubbles......some of us choose to look around to see what else is going on sometimes........

meh, whatever.

soul realization........

i'm entering a weird new era in my life where fast cars, guitars and loud music seem to be dominating right now........

keep you posted......told you things would be changing......i can feel it in the air........

bug eyed

choices.......we all have to make them........

choices, life is about choices.......today mine is a fast car or a beautiful woman, or spirituality?

i think i'll take all three thank you very much.........


cb

in it's right place........

the first chris bose died somewhere on a battlefield in europe in 1916, sometime during the fall season.
i am the third chris bose to come down the line, and though there are no "great" wars in my lifetime, i am part of the larger struggle for equality and justice for the first nations of canada. we are the hidden history, there is still a staggeringly large divide between majority and minority canada in every way you can imagine: financially, health, education, freedom, and equality.

on seemingly random another note, i just picked up the deluxe re-release of radiohead's album "KID A" and it seems like just yesterday i was waiting anxiously for it. that was oct 3, 2000 it came out, which in some ways feels like a lifetime ago. i was living on battle street, downtown across from the WW I and II cenotaph. i distinctly recall the day it came out, i was up and out the door to buy it from "Spinner's" record store, which is long gone. anyways, i remember getting back home, it was a beautiful fall day, the leaves in the trees in the park beside my house were gold and orange, like a fire, and i had a coffee as i listened to it, and will never forget those first five notes of the keyboard in the first song, " Everything in it's right place." it's hard to believe that was nine years ago. that was an influential moment in my life, a turning point, because it made me re-evaluate my pre-conceptions of music, and tore down what i knew about radiohead. a point of reinvention, something i do constantly and consistently, usually without reflection.

the fall season is always a time of reflection for me, the seasons are changing, the leaves turning colour and the weather cools down, usually after a super intense summer here in the 'loops. that was an interesting fall, the one of 2000, my roommate was shane henley and we both were just out of the wreck's of relationships with our spouses. partying was definitely on our horizon, and somehow i survived the thoroughly wicked debauchery, e.g., that halloween i was decked out as a nun for the party we had and it was pretty crazy. i notice life goes in cycles, i have a real high period of accomplishments and success of some kind, followed by a lull while i experiment with reinvention.......

outside the sky is clear and beautiful, i've got three meetings today, a book coming out within weeks and i know this is another period of transformation......into what i don't know.......hopefully it'll be a hell of a ride.......

cheers,


cb

the wilfrid laurier memorial

sir wilfrid laurier.....

re: article in the georgia straight.....

hey y'all,

recently, i took part in a really cool program with the Gulf Islands Film and Television School (G.I.F.T.S) where we worked with 12 First Nations 16-38 to mentor them and show them how to use the internet as a place to show and tell the world their stories, to connect with other FN, and generally bridge that digital chasm we seem to have in front of us........

the Georgia Straight just published an article about it, do check it out!

http://straight.com/article-268228/first-nations-youth-get-schooled-digital-media-new-program

it was a lot of fun, the kids were great, my co-mentor, Tracie Louttit, was really cool to work with and G.I.F.T.S. was above and beyond anything I could have expected, I am a total believer in the film school and the programs they run. plus, they really do care about what they do and are passionate about the causes they support........

basically, I have created my dream job, I work with FN youth in technology, empowerment and finding and expressing their voice through creativity. what could be better than that?

oh, and for politicians beat their chests and howl out loud for everyone to hear " Youth represent the Future!"
let's see you get in the trenches with me for awhile, and put your money where your mouth is........

now to pack and get ready to go home........


cheers,


chrisbose.

all hallow's eve........

i just realized, that i'm in another small community this year on hallow's eve......weird.....

last year i was in a small community and there was a bonfire, fireworks and food.....same thing this year.....it's pretty cool to see communities rally around occasions such as this.....everyone looks so happy.....

seeing dad's holding their kids made me miss my kids real bad. even though, right now, i don't want to go home, other than to pick up my kids and get hugs and kisses. despite everything i've been through in this trip called life, my kids get me through the days. the nights are hell, but that's when i make art.

well, i'm gonna go play guitar and watch the moon rise over this ancient rainforest........

cb

re: the road.....

i'm heading home right now after a couple weeks (maybe three weeks now?) on the road......it's always a challenge to shift gears and try to adapt to some kind of "normalcy"........which is something i don't really do that well anyways......i think i'm gonna buckle down and work on some new songs and get ready for some more touring.......

sometime in novemeber i've got a book called "Stone the Crow" coming out with Kegedonce Press, so hopefully i'll be hitting the road and heading to Ontario for some dates to promote that.......will keep you posted.....i think we're doing a launch somewhere in vancouver too........

it's always kind of surreal, especially today, knowing i'll be back home on the rez in kamloops in a couple days......makes me look at the sunset different, trying to absorb everyone bit of sunlight, every breath of air, the cool breeze, the dampness of the ocean and the rainforest i was walking through today.....the smell of cedar and the earth.....the sound of the ravens cawing in the sky.......the sound of the waves crashing on the shore......i have a difficult time coming back to earth and the 'loops.....

anyways, life is what you make it........


cheers,


cb

amsterdamage

i flipped over to amsterdamage recently with some friends......ahhhh the good life.....

sacred ways and lost days........

art is therapy, art as therapy, art as a means of finding and using your voice.....

the perfect family

i'm not religious, obviously, i like things that are sacrilicious.....and controversial.

i've been on the road from home a lot this year.....i miss my kids so much.

they are everything to me and i hope i do a good enough job showing them that. as for the art above, i think i love the idea of the family, but, because i never learned or saw a functional family in my home life, i never learned those particular skills, so keeping my family together has never been a reality for long.

this means i am dedicating my life to my kids and arts/creativity.

some of us love the falling in love part of a relationship, and then suck at the rest.......

etc.

cb

the demons and other creatures lurking in broad daylight.....or every day evils are abound......

i'm back at it, doing what i do best, which is to make weird art and films and music and writing and stuff.....whew....i was scared for a minute there..........and i'm on galiano island, which makes things much better.......

a royal dealie thing.......

the chiefs.....

re: gone away and computer crashed..

hey peoples,

my computer cacked out on me........the harddrive crashed....ON A MAC!!!!

and i'm on the road the next two weeks straight.....so october will be a low month for art......we'll see......


see you soon......


cb

re: hey, i'm alright, really, i am.....

oi! things get better.....that depressing post i did a while back was a temporary state of affairs. i woke up the next day, the sky was blue and it was a beautiful day, the came back into my sails and i've been charging happily towards everything that comes to life. i feel damn good, and look forward to the next few weeks......

i've got a book of poetry coming out in november, called "Stone the Crow" published by Kegedonce press, some more info can be found here:
http://kegedonce.com/author_detail.php?AId=22

the next two weeks i'll be doing some video stuff on galiano island and away from home. i will be doing some more art and will start posting new stuff again soon! as well as have release dates for the book, and more tour info.....

thank you, and come again.


cb

the sir wilfrid memorial

images and ideology

re: i've had better days.........

i've had a horrible day.

i'm so tired. me mum is having serious health issues, i haven't seen my oldest daughter in two years, and don't look forward to that battle.....i'm tired, and my ex just basically told me to go fuck myself. aside from that, i have to paste on that smile, lie to people, say everything is okay and charge back into the inferno.....called life......

i need a break. here's the part where if there was a god, a goddess, fate, something, anything, i say, give me a fucking break. i can't take anymore.

whoever you are, wherever you are, cherish everything you've got.

'cause you could lose it at anytime.

cb

life and death in the garden of paradise.......

the death of chris bose

my great, great grandfather died in belgium during world war I. i've been doing some research about it as i started reading "three day road" by jo boyden. it made me think about what he must have went through before dying. all that he gave up to go fight for canada. his aboriginal title, land and many more things.

the great war they called it.

250

i'm on the road and i'm tired.

jeez, it ain't like when i was younger, not that i'm a friggin' geezer or anything, but the long nights take the toll.....the bus, the car, the planes and the waiting all take their toll......then coming home and trying to have normalcy.......right.....

most of this month i'll be on the road here and there around b.c. and maybe a surprise trip to toronto....we'll see, i'm knackered enough as it is......but i wanna play  guitar and jam and do things, so sleep will have to wait.....

november looks chill.......we'll see, it might get crazy and that's cool, ' cause that's how i live......

until then, i'll keep making art and music and stuff and keep you posted.......

cb

the trials and tribulations of jesus bozo.......

carry me back from the road.....

re: videography

hey there,

i think the most difficult think about being a videographer is you stumble across a section of footage or a tape of something from a wonderful time that has long since past, and now, you would do anything to be there again. i recently found some footage of my daughter and son from about Fall 2005. it's really beautiful to see them playing and i'd do anything to be there again. makes me wish i could go back in time and fix what i didn't know was coming. do it right. nearly made me cry watching it. the footage is sweet, a beautiful fall day at prince charles park in kamloops. seems like i've been through hell since then. i don't know if trial and tribulations make you stronger, maybe it just makes you realize you want to get through the storms and to the calm again. i miss my kids. more than anything. if you got a family, and you want it, do what it takes to not lose it. like me.

cb

what if jesus were a clown? a pimp clown?

money and skin

crystal stones.

so, i'm doing a lot more erotic type art lately.

what's your point?

i'm bored.

To Jesus thru Mary.......

i love dark, scary art.

re: spaces.....

hello friends, lovers, and fans......

i'm in a weird space, feeling that i must be bold and create even crazier art. it happens. in a transitional place in my life, and wondering what to do. i feel sometimes i should be on the road touring, playing live and such, but that will have to wait. springtime maybe. touring canada in the winter sucks. don't do it.

as well, i need an album to record and tour behind anyway, which hasn't quite happened yet. the sky is getting darker earlier, seasons are changing, and i have to sort what to do for gigs and finding a place to live, etc, etc......

i guess i feel a bit discombobulated, disconnected from my peers, hiding away creating art, i think i'm wood shedding, practicing, paying my dues, hoping a door will open and i will be able to take the chance and go through......

a lot of people have been really kind and amazing to me, ashok mathur, doug buis, kateri aki-wenzie damm, joanne arnott, janet rogers, martin tuba, tania willard, garry gottfriedson, my family, my cousin's, and in the next few weeks i should have a book of poetry coming out with kegedonce, called "stone the crow."

we'll see what happens and keeping on storming towards the light, the darkness and everything in between i guess......

see you around,


cb

dreams of lovers and death.....

i am haunted by my past and mistakes i have made.

new styles and such....

i have recently re-discovered a love of cool band posters, above which is not, but still, it was influenced by them.

body bags for the reserves.....

sigh, i thought i'd wade in on the whole body bag gaffe......so, okay, here's my take.....canada is fucking rich with white entitlement and not nearly enough post-colonial guilt.....

nothing changes......

for the million or so other first nations in canada living in a near inescapable poverty hell just like me, fuck you canada.

got land? resources? a decent job? a career? hope?

thank an indian.

drifting and dreaming of a different world......dreamtime......

post modern envy and lust

what is the lesser of two evils?

deadly politics

ghosts and fate

oh canada

re: damn

hey y'all.....

so, i've been shooting, yelling and directing this music video for janet rogers the past five or eight days.....and i've just started editing it.....i'm gonna do three versions of the same video, each one different and crazy!

hence, my not posting anything, because, when you shoot live video, have a crew of ten or so, five vehicles and several locations, you tend to be very focused.....plus, it was a lot like an 'ed wood' movie, in that we were making it up as we went along......in some instances........

anyways,

i'm gonna get back into the daily updates tomorrow as i've got a bunch of art i've been working on behind the scenes......

otherwise, just another weird/surreal week in my life......

cheers,

cb

the endless struggle.........

if you look at this image, you'll see parasites, dead fish, lightning and people in gas masks....but really, what this piece is about, is the endless struggle between two cultures......

oscar wilde and dorian gray

if oscar wilde were alive today, he'd be a rockstar.

this photo is over one hundred years old.

isn't that crazy? it looks like it could've been taken today.

i've always heard of oscar wilde, but never had the time or excuses to check his work out.

without people like this man, pushing literary and social boundaries, we'd still be in the victorian era.

yeesh.

cb